Lets Grow Together (ValentinesDiary)

Before we begin I must apologize for my extended absence! My computer is having some problems and keeps crashing, I'm working on it right now but my cooling pad also is broken, which in return makes my laptop crash sooner rather than later. I will admit I don't take the best care of my computer, I play minecraft until my hands burn from touching my key bored and I Skype my boyfriend usually all night every night..i'm surprised my computer hasn't fully died. I don't really want to do a system restore because i'm not sure if i'll lose what my computer has or not? I suppose I should research! Even as i type this my hand is getting burnt and I just turned it on! 

Lets get back on subject! So a while ago I posted a blog called "I'm Tired". You may have read it, if not it was basically my attempt to reach out for help. My boyfriend reads my blogs and i'm hoping my family does, Although I don't think they even check it..which kind of upsets me. But anyways my Boyfriend told my mom and we are now setting up an out of school counselor.

I have lots of friends who surround me with happiness and support, only a few of them know whats going on. My counselor is also another huge supporter in my life. My mom and boyfriend obviously too. 

It's not that I'm sad or unhappy all the time or anything like that. I'm just angry, at myself, at my boyfriend, my phone, just everyone. I don't ever want to do anything either. I have no motivation, I'd rather just lay here doing nothing. No matter what I can't get my body to move, even if it's something I want to do.

I have hopes and dreams, and I am determined to accomplish them but I can't do that with this heavy weight of guilt and anger pulling down on me. I want to get over this I'm tired of feeling lazy.

I think I need more organization in my life, Not that I want to be wired to a schedule but I think I need to be until I get used to doing everyday things like chores and school.

My goals for the week:

• Make schedule
• Make meal plan
• Pick up my grades
• Finish my comics

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